Currently Listening Songs About Jane By Maroon 5 Not Coming Home see related

Oh, by the way, for those of you who didn't know... I cut my hair. 7 freaking inches! It was all the way down my back, now it's halfway down my back, and I have bangs now... This new picture is from when I first got it cut. now my bangs are shorter and like actual bangs. haha...

Oh, and it's 2008. I turn 18 this year! ahh! I get a new car! And a lovely big check in zee mail! (: Oh goodness, if only June will come.

Pre-calc sucks a lot. Don't take it if you don't have to. Mr. Payne is a pain. hah... nice pun... haven't heard that one, have ya?

I realized the other day that this year will be a really big year for me. For starters, I'm now going to a new church. Instead of... good ol' Elkhart Valley Church of the Brethren, my family has decided that Middlebury Church of the Brethren is a nicer place. So, yeah, that's pretty big. I finally have a youth group! Along with this new church thing comes more opportunities, such as CCS (Christian Citizenship Seminar), which will take me to New York City and Washington DC for 6 days! right before spring break! So, I'll get two weeks off! hah! (: Also, our youth group is going to Puerto Rico at the end of June, which is also my birthday! Nice birthday present for Krista! Then, by the end of June, I will hopefully have visited a nice majority of the churches of the COB in the Northern Indiana District for the Brethren Youth Heritage Team with Nate, my partner. Then in July, I'll be going to Richmond, VA for Annual Conference to help celebrate the 300th anniversary of the COB! (:  I've never been to VA. I'm pretty pumped. Then the day I get back from VA, I'm heading off to O'Hare for a lovely flight to England that will be followed with a splendid tour of Europe. I'll be visiting Paris for the second time, Barcelona (I think), London, and Morocco! I'm sooo excited! And, if everything goes really well, I'll be going to Schwarzenau, Germany for the offical celebration of the COB's anniversary and stand on the banks of the Eider River where the first 7 batizisms were held in 1708. (: Gosh, that's exciting. I'm pumped. I'll be a world traveler!

Well, yeah, that's an update for those of you who still read this. I haven't actually talked to a lot of you who read this in a long time. So, yeah, that's what's up. (:

Currently Listening It Won't Be Soon Before Long By Maroon 5 Makes me Wonder see related

So, it's been forever since I last wrote anything. So, you should write me some comments to make me feel loved.

It would be too hard to sum up my summer and the past few weeks, so I'll just tell you the highlights/lowlights.

I met some amazing people working at camp. I saw a side of camp I never wanted to see, know existed, or ever wanted to exist (basically, I don't like the camp I know from working there). I grew a lot emotionally. I got to know myself a bit more in the process of dealing with things that have been bothering me. But overall, it was a summer to remember. I miss everyone so much. I can't believe it's over. (I'm basically just listing. Don't expect it to run together smoothly.)

The past few weeks? Well, four letters can sum that up: heck. I say "heck" because it wasn't true "hell". It just hasn't been pleasant. It was my own fault, mostly. But other people and other things have caused this stress. Needing money badly and not having any because of blowing it on things that weren't as necessary as once thought isn't cool. Trying to work with people who are unrealistic and expect too much out of her employees is very annoying. Trying to get through a class that isn't made to let people who don't read the book slide through is also very hard. Having a new teacher to get used to in the art world is also hard, but I'm liking this change a lot more than the rest. He's a fresh... beginning to what I think should be an interesting and pretty exciting time in AP art. He's definitely not a Bradley, but I'm not sure if that's a horrible thing or not. Don't get me wrong, I liked her a lot, but I do well with organization. And, knowing that I only have two more years of this and that this year and next year are really what counts is very... stressful. Thinking about college now is such a scary thought, yet so exciting.

Ohhhh... and I dyed my hair, again.

Currently Listening Foiled By Blue October Into the Ocean see related

Okay, so I'm trying to think of something profound and interesting to talk about on here so that the few posts that I do make don't bore you to death. All I can really think about these days is how quickly it's all going. I can't believe how close I am to being done with this school year. It's absolutely insane. I believe that next week will be our fourth week in the third trimester. That means that we'll be a third done with this last tri. I mean, it doesn't seem like it has been that long since it was my first day of my second trimester. Everything is flying by, and I want it to last forever.

However, I don't. I really want to be 18 as soon as I can. I want all of the freedoms that come along with it. But then once I hit 18, I want to stay that age the rest of my life. I don't care about turning 21 because I don't care to drink or any of that other fun stuff. Life seems to slip away so quickly once you actually have one.

Back in the day when I didn't have a life, it seemed like it would never pass. When I was in first grade, I can remember thinking that I would never get to be in high school. It seemed like time went by twenty times slower than it actually should. Now, it doesn't seem to last long enough. All the time I spend with my friends or talking to my friends is very precious to me, and it never seems to last long enough. There certainly doesn't seem to be enough time in one day.

Ehh... nothing can ever be exactly how we wish it could. Hopefully life doesn't pass me by too quickly.

Currently Listening History for Sale By Blue October Calling You see related

So, a while ago, Nicky, Chenoa, and Chenoa's sister Elise were at my house. For some reason, we got onto the topic of my "emo" days. Wow... that was interesting. So, we got onto my Xanga and went looking back on my past posts. Nicky had mentioned that she used to be scared of me. Not scared like she thought I'd hurt her. Actually, quite the opposite; she was scared that if she hurt my feelings in any way, I'd hurt myself. haha Wow, I don't blame her really. When I look back on those days from my posts on this silly site, I realized just how annoying and whinny I really sounded. I seemed like some weirdo kid. I was annoying! Another one of my friends also told me that he remembers me as an annoying 13 and 14 year old girl. I never thought of myself as annoying, but I really was. Wow, it's amazing how I've changed. I'm sure I can still be annoying, but not so much like I was before. I was a drama queen! And I basically blew everything out of proportion to make it seem like I actually had something to be sad/mad about. It really was kind of pathetic. Goodness, I'm glad high school happened and new friends came my way. Who knows where I'd be now. 0.o